So it has been a very long time since I last updated this blog, over a year to be exact. Mainly because life has been so busy that I haven’t found the time to write. But tonight as both of my kids are tucked safely in their beds, I can’t quit thinking about those 26 families in CT who would give anything to tuck their loved one into bed.
I had asked my husband if he felt that this shooting had received more news coverage than the others, because to me this felt differently. He said he didn’t think so but maybe it was just so new. I don’t know why it feels differently than Columbine or VTech or any other shootings, maybe it is because now I have kids and they change you in so many ways. I can remember watching the coverage of the Columbine shooting, I was a senior in high school, I remember the fear/horror that I felt then. But still this is different. Maybe it is because I have friends and family members who are teachers and I know they would do anything in their power to protect “their kids”. I can’t even imagine what it would be like to be a parent of one of the victims or even worse the shooter.
I think that every parent fears loosing a child. I have thought how would you go on if your child was killed by an act like this, but after this school shooting I thought what if your child was the shooter. I think that we need to face it, most of the parents of the school shooters are not monsters, they are in fact very good people. I can only imagine the huge amount of guilt that would come with that.
My mom and I were talking tonight about how one of the victim’s father was getting a lot of flack for praying for the shooter. We were talking about how that shows what amazing character this man has. It is a true testament of oneself in how you react in times like these. I was very lucky that my parents taught me kindness and empathy, I can only hope that I pass that along to my children.
I am a very strong believer that everything happens for a reason...but I am having a very hard time seeing it in this tragedy. I pray that all those families find peace in their hearts and minds knowing that their angels are in heaven watching over them.
Hug your babies a little longer and be grateful for all time you have with them.
